Nehmherinah

So I've been doing lots of photography lately and I get sorta angry at myself for it, like "why aren't you doing drawing or writing." Though I know I can't. These things I used to enjoy now just put me on edge and fill me with self-loathing. It's too stressful because I've become too angry at myself all the time. All day. Every day. But working with my plants calms me down (when I have no access to human contact). I sometimes spend an hour or two fiddling with them- watering, pruning, looking for caterpillars- and at those times I feel content. Taking photos is also calming (except when the camera's being a jerk). So that's why I have so man

Excuse me while I shamelessly advertise/whore myself out. I've submitted something to this competition, and people should vote on it. http://www.makeascenecompetition.com.au/gallery/view/1118 Seee? After the competition, I'll put the picture up here. ~squizzay (https://www.deviantart.com/squizzay) is the gorgeous model. He was so patient- the entire thing took 5 hours and would've taken longer if I had more time. But yeah, he didn't fidget or move too much or complain. He even fed me when he had one unpainted arm. : D <3 In any case, this contest is rather important to my interests. And I'll be incredibly ashamed if I don't get somewhere with this. SO VOTE. <3

So all this crap I've uploaded is like stuff from this journal I've been keeping. It's a little black Moleskine and I put down thoughts, ideas, reminders and drawings and stuff. (: It's a great idea for artists. Helps gets stuff down before you forget it. Yeah, and that's why it's all on graph paper. I don't feel like editing out the graph paper on over nine thousand pictures, so deal. It's in it's natural form. Also, fuck the 100 themes thingymabob. |: